I've been dwelling a lot lately, J pointed this out to me a few weeks ago and I have been trying to figure things out ever since. I was talking to him about how I missed our life in Alaska and all the great friends I had and how I don't really know anyone here, at least not like my AK friends. And J stopped me dead in my tracks and said "Andrea, you said that all the time when we were in Alaska, about people in Colorado." This really has gotten me thinking about that old saying 'the Grass in Always greener on the other side,' as well as 'You don't know what you got till it's gone.' These really are rather sad, but even more sad I think because of how true they are!! Today, after 16 successful months, i managed to loose not 1 but 2 pacifiers, plus the little straps they are on. One I lost at the National Airborne Day festivities and the other is lost somewhere in my house, to be found in 20 years. Luckily i had a spare (no strap), but i have not realized how much i had become dependent on the pacifier and the strap until they were gone.
So how does one deal with this thing? Are we just always fated to miss what we no longer have and never truly appreciate the here and now? I do not have the answers to this, I wish I did because we will be moving again within a year and I really really don't want to be sitting at our new home lamenting this place! i am not having a great time here, I have good friends but overall this is really hard and I will be very ashamed of myself if it is only once I'm gone that I realize that things were not so bad here.
I would love to hear ideas you have!! How do you appreciate the here and now?