How do you deal with BIG news? No I am not pregnant ;) I recently found out some information, before I probably should have, but it is not what i wanted it to be At. All. And the worst part is that I am not deal with it very well, at all. I am crying and I am fussing, and complaining and finding everything wrong with it that I can. The funny thing is that my Facebook status Yesterday was "Some days I am so, amazingly, and overwhelmingly glad that God is Sovereign and I dont have to worry what my future holds." Ya, yesterday was stressful and terrible and I tried to make the best but at the end of the day I cried and complained and learned a great lesson and went to bed feeling awesome!
And then I get this text and I fall apart:( "Why is God doing this to me?" "Doesn't he know this is the last thing I wanted?" "I thought he answered the prayers of his children?" and most of all, "How does this benefit God's kingdom?" "Why does it have to be this?" Ugh, why can't I be gracious and see the positives and actually trust that God knows what he is doing and has the best in mind? Thankfully I have some Amazing friends who helped my process and think of positives. Usually, I would just run away and pretend that life is great and not acknowledge the elephant in the room. But I can't do that any more, I have to deal with the stuff of life as an adult and I don't want to deal with stuff that I don't like! i have to process this, and I have to do it quick and positively while still functioning and being the mother that S needs me to be. But I am still bummed and feel cheated and wish that the news was something different, but I have to remember what I learned yesterday and hopefully I will start dealing with Big news better! Right now I am eating chocolate, watching silly tv shows and asking you, How do you deal with Big stuff?